Tables, Art, and a Lack of Commitment

In Commitment

You know, I really am horrible with commitment. Not always, mind you, and not for everything. But there are some things that I just suck at. Like this blog, for instance! How horrible is it that I haven't updated this since... a month ago? I don't know anymore. It's kind of sad.

But it's always kind of been like that for me. It's not so much that I start things that I never finish. I mean, I always finish what I start. But often times I leave things alone for a while. You know, forget about them then come back. I go through phases. I'm not entirely sure why.

I guess that's just who I am.

In Art

I've been working rather hard on my art recently. I mean, not that it's improved in quality much. It's still about the same. But, still, I've been working on it. You know my 2010 by 2010 project? [If not, check the link at the end of this section.] Well, I'm behind on it, and that makes me want to work on my art more.

The thing is, though, that I can't seem to do art quickly. I worry too much about small details. It's kind of frustrating, but kind of worth it. I don't mind pumping out art of decent quality, except that I'm behind on my deadlines...

And to add to that, I have an inability to save my work! Every time I finish a piece, my computer crashes or something of that general nature, and I loose all my work. Why? Because I can't seem to save! The last piece I did, I spent five hours on, and then my computer crashed. I haven't even had the time to make it again! It's upsetting, and you'd think that would be enough to get me to start saving. But it isn't, and I still loose hours and hours of work a week.

AND THAT'S WHY A FRIEND GAVE ME JASC! It's a program that happens to auto-save every two minutes. It's not the way I should be solving my problem, but it works.

Check out my latest works and my 2010 by 2010 Project here: Teh-Yuki-chan at deviantART

In Tables

I'm on spring break at the moment, and so I decided to go up to my friend's dorm and spend the week with her at college. Sounds simple enough, right? Well, it was all going great until we decided to order something to eat, since the dining hall doesn't open until tomorrow. So I went to grab the menu for this really cheap Chinese place. Of course, I wasn't paying much attention when I came back, and I leaned against a little table and.... BANG!! It fell apart. I even hit my arm on the desk behind it. I think it's bruising...

My friend laughed at me for the longest time... D=

What I learned Today

So this past week, I had a lot of trouble in school. Not only was I tired the entire week, but I had a test every single day. I wasn't too worried to start out with. I mean, I know all of the things I'm learning in school. But by Friday I was sick of tests, and I know it impacted how well I did. I mean, I can only handle so much at a time. I can't do a test well when I've only had an hour of real sleep in an entire week, but after getting an hour of sleep for eight tests in a row... Ugh...

I know it isn't my teachers' faults, but I can't help but to be annoyed with them. I mean, I swear they all got together and figured out how many tests they could give me in a week. But it frustrates me a bit. I do try to keep surpassing my limits, to push myself farther, but...

In this last week, I don't think I've learned too much. No, I was too tired to encode enough information to learn amazing things. But I did learn something specifically about myself, and that is just as valuable.

I have my limits, and no matter how much I hate to, there are times when I need to be content with them.